if only life were easy

when i was little, i used to wish that i had an off switch.
this was because i was always afraid to go to sleep,
so i wished that i could just turn myself off at night in order to avoid the scary 'falling asleep' process.

as i get older, i still find myself wishing i had on/off switches for various things...
i wish for an off switch for noise when i'm trying to study.
i wish for an on switch for music when something cool happens because life should come with background music ;)
but most of all, i wish there was an off switch for loving someone.

it's hard when you've cared for someone for so long
and yet, it truly is over.
so i really just wish that there was an off switch for my heart.
but instead my heart is just jacked up.
ugh.

peace&&love

*ashP*

lies

so i've decided romantic movies are total lies.
all this music and all these movies and just all this stuff shows everything working out "happily ever after!"

my frickin eye.
i mean, i believe in happily ever afters, don't get me wrong.
they just NEVER happen like they do in movies.

like seriously it just bugs me.

people do NOT fall madly in love in like 4 days.
nobody ends up with their first love.
and after a few decades apart, you are NOT still crazy about that person.

boo.
i'm becoming a cynic.
guess that's what happens when love dies.

*ashP*