if only life were easy

when i was little, i used to wish that i had an off switch.
this was because i was always afraid to go to sleep,
so i wished that i could just turn myself off at night in order to avoid the scary 'falling asleep' process.

as i get older, i still find myself wishing i had on/off switches for various things...
i wish for an off switch for noise when i'm trying to study.
i wish for an on switch for music when something cool happens because life should come with background music ;)
but most of all, i wish there was an off switch for loving someone.

it's hard when you've cared for someone for so long
and yet, it truly is over.
so i really just wish that there was an off switch for my heart.
but instead my heart is just jacked up.
ugh.

peace&&love

*ashP*