temper. mental. temperamental.

so.
i tried blogging like 2 weeks ago.
tried to include pics from my trip to hawaii.

but alas, it did not work.
blogs are too temperamental.
the key words being "temper" and "mental"...
therefore i am not posting that blog because it is basically lame without the pics.

but in other news!!

it's a new semester! :D
and i'm loving all of my classes
i'm even loving all my homework, although it never seems to end...
it is my goal for the semester to actually LEARN.
not just store, regurgitate, and then lose forever.
haha :)
so it's quite fun to actually learn :)

also.
i'm applying for a study abroad in New York!!!
ahh it sounds amazing!!
english classes, side trips to boston, palmyra, and DC...
let alone staying in manhattan!!
but.
i have to apply.
and make it.
which is possibly a long shot.
but.
i'm wishinghopingthinkingpraying :)

haha so i had a friend tell me my blog was inspirational.
i don't really get that, since i've only had maybe 2 inspirational blogs...
but hey.
why not include a little inspiration in every blog?
so here's today's inspiration!

"things which matter most must never be at the mercy

of things which matter least."

always remember what the most important things in life are.
always remember what you want to get out of life,
and then live your life so as to obtain those goals.
never let the little things get in the way...
because those things aren't important :)

peace&&love

*ashP*

home sweet home

first semester of college completed?
CHECK.
finals week over with?
CHECK.
home sweet home?
CHECK.

life is good :D

i am LOVING being home with nothing to worry about except fitting as much fun as possible into this week before i leave for HAWAII!
i just love having no homework and no huge responsibilities!
and it's great to just be with my family :)
i sure love them!

ahh but i have too many people i have to see during the break,

and only like 5 more days to do it!
so i gotta figure that out.

and since it is snowing profusely, i think i should make a snowman at some point.
since i've only ever made one in my entire life.

soo. yeah.
basically i'm just so happy with life and happy to be home!
and happy to be heading to sunshine and beaches in just 5 short days!

in case i don't blog again before,
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

peace&&love

*ashP*

nostalgia

so i went to the concert of my old dance company today.
it was AWESOME.
they danced so well and looked so beautiful :)
i love those girls :)

ahh but it made me so sad!

don't get me wrong.
i love college.

but i miss high school sometimes...
when school was easy
and i thought i had the rest of my life planned out...

but life changes.
and like i said a few posts ago, change is good.
you gotta embrace it.

but at the moment i'm just feeling highly nostalgic...


peace&&love

*ashP*

día de acción de gracias

that ^^ is how you say thanksgiving in spanish.
literally translated, it basically means 'day of action of giving thanks.'
and it wasn't until i learned that phrase in spanish that i really thought about the word 'thanksgiving' in english...

thanksgiving.

it's not about eating turkey or simply being thankful...
it's about giving thanks.


telling God what He does that you're thankful for.
telling other people what they do that you're thankful for.
telling your parents, friends, and just EVERYONE what they do that you're thankful for.

give them the thanks they deserve.
and then show your gratitude through your actions.

it's SO much deeper than just turkey and pie.
although those are definitely added bonuses, and indeed something to be thankful for :)

so on this day of thanksgiving
(we're on vacation schedule and therefore did things on the wrong day this year)
i want to give thanks for:

the restored gospel of Jesus Christ.
the atonement of Jesus Christ.
the book of mormon.
the temple.
the holy ghost.
my parents.
my siblings.
my siblings in-law.
my nieces and nephew.
my second family.
a fully functional body and mind.
this beautiful world and all the beautiful creations within it.
and
food.

just to name a few of the most important things :)

i am so blessed.
i am so grateful.

life is completely amazing when you learn to find the positive in everything :)

remember to always be thankful, even when it's not the 4th thursday of november.

peace&&love

*ashP*

a new leaf

change: to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc.,

[of something] different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone.

yup.
it's definitely time for some change in my life.

new habits.
new friendships.
new goals.
new-found happiness.

life is so getting so much better.
guess change isn't so bad after all :)

thanks for teaching me that...you know who you are :)

peace&&love
*ashP*

if only life were easy

when i was little, i used to wish that i had an off switch.
this was because i was always afraid to go to sleep,
so i wished that i could just turn myself off at night in order to avoid the scary 'falling asleep' process.

as i get older, i still find myself wishing i had on/off switches for various things...
i wish for an off switch for noise when i'm trying to study.
i wish for an on switch for music when something cool happens because life should come with background music ;)
but most of all, i wish there was an off switch for loving someone.

it's hard when you've cared for someone for so long
and yet, it truly is over.
so i really just wish that there was an off switch for my heart.
but instead my heart is just jacked up.
ugh.

peace&&love

*ashP*

lies

so i've decided romantic movies are total lies.
all this music and all these movies and just all this stuff shows everything working out "happily ever after!"

my frickin eye.
i mean, i believe in happily ever afters, don't get me wrong.
they just NEVER happen like they do in movies.

like seriously it just bugs me.

people do NOT fall madly in love in like 4 days.
nobody ends up with their first love.
and after a few decades apart, you are NOT still crazy about that person.

boo.
i'm becoming a cynic.
guess that's what happens when love dies.

*ashP*